After my husband’s death, which nobody expected, I fell apart completely. I didn’t realize how much of my identity was wrapped up in my life with him. I felt like a zombie, a shell of a person.. half my spirit was on the other side.. But I did eventually recover. Can’t say I’ll ever get over it, but I can live past it now. I had to learn that time…[Read more]

When my youngest was born, I remember holding him in that half-sleep daze at 3am and just feeling that he wasn’t all here yet. His eyes would scan the room like he was still seeing something I couldn’t. That liminal space… it felt holy.

Years later, I took care of my grandmother as she was passing. She had Alzheimer’s, and some days she’d a…[Read more]

I wish more people understood that spiritual awakening doesn’t always look graceful, it can look like panic attacks, dissociation, crying for no reason, thinking you’re going crazy. I was that person. And I had no language for it, no elder, no guide. Just fear and isolation and that awful feeling like something was breaking open inside me and I d…[Read more]

omg yes yes yes all of this 🙏💔

when i had my first big awakening (aka emotional breakdown slash cosmic upgrade 🌀✨) i thought i was legit going crazy. i was having visions during dreams, i’d feel energy in my body that wasn’t “mine,” and i kept hearing this ringing in my ears like someone was trying to talk to me but not with words?? and the wor…[Read more]

That is a lot to deal with, I’m sorry you had to go through all that! Along with this board, I’m eventually going to be creating a board specifically related to recovery from trauma. It will also be covered in depth in my alchemy book. Trauma doesn’t have to be a life sentence, and we can transmute it into a strength with a lot of work. The Netism…[Read more]

Most of the time, it’s breath and sound are all I need. Music is powerful, certain tones can pull me into that in-between space. That said… I have worked with sacred substances too. But I don’t take that lightly. They open doors to greater fields of consciousness, but they also strip you bare. If your heart isn’t steady or your intention isn’t c…[Read more]

My mother died when I was 16. For a while, I didn’t know how I’d make it through… The world kept moving, but I felt distant from it, like I was only half-there.

I started turning to the old ways, at first because I needed comfort, but over time, because I could feel them working. I began connecting with my ancestry because I needed it. I was s…[Read more]

Yeah, I’ve done a few journeys always with friends, but I usually end up walking off by myself for a while. Just to get in my own head, you know? Last time I did, I sat by a creek for like an hour just feeling everything. It’s hard to explain, but it’s like the world breathes different when you’re really in it. Everything slows down, and stuff I…[Read more]

Yeah… a backpacking trip changed me. My buddy passed a couple years back. I didn’t really know how to deal, so one day I just packed my gear and went out alone for four days, no phone, no distractions. Just me and the woods.
The second night, something happened. I’d hiked deep into this canyon, nowhere near a trail. Made camp, got a fire going…[Read more]